Well Chance... Elder Wilde is now on his mission! I am so proud of him! He is such a huge example to me. The first week was the hardest. I miss him so much. I wanted to just crawl up into a ball and disappear. I still some days want to disappear. I still have my ups and downs but I do have more ups than downs.
Well I was pretty much a overly attached Girlfriend the first week. I sent him an email everyday and tons of pictures. I also sent him a letter. I felt bad. I was being a huge distraction to him, or at least I felt I was. So I have now taken control of my addiction to emailing him and just write a little bit from everyday in one email and send one email with writing and one with pictures. A long with a hand written letter.
I have heard from a lot of people to make these two years about me. To really take this chance and focus on me. To strengthen my relationship with my heavenly father. And I have already started to strengthen my relationship with God. I relied so much on him the first week for comfort and guidance. I wanted to know everything was going to be okay. I wanted this hole I felt in my heart to go away. The hole will never go away until Elder Wilde gets home. But for now it will be filled with love and memories and it will also be filled with Christ love. I am turning my self to the lord more than ever. He is the only one who feels exactly what I am feeling. He knows every detail of every thought. I find comfort in reading my scriptures and even more comfort in my personal conversation I have with my father in heaven during prayer.
Prayer has been my biggest strength. My biggest asset. I am so grateful for prayer.
Well yes the first two weeks were hard but so great, I grew closer to my Heavenly Father, I grew closer to Elder Wilde. and I will continue to grow closer to Both of them through these two years. I know these two years will be well worth the wait! I mean I only have 23.58 Months, 102 Weeks, 717 Days, 17208 Hours, 1032480 Minutes and 61948800Seconds. But who's counting.....
