Dear Sister Bersie....

Dear sister Bersie you are here by called to serve as a missionary for the church of Jesus Christ of latter day saints. You are assigned to labor in the Canada Winnipeg mission! You should report to the Provo Missionary Training Center on Wednesday, May 27th, 2015. You will prepare to preach the gospel in the English language. 

Wow! I am so speachless, I am beyond excited! I have waited for this moment for 2 years! I can't even believe it's actully happening. 

I am truly blessed to be able to represent the lord for 18 months. 

I can't even express the joy and love I have to this wonderful work. I can already feel the love for the people in Winnipeg. I am so excited to serve them. I am excited to meet my Mission President and his wife. Even though I will only be with them for a month. I am excited to be on this journey with a new Mission President in July. 

God has a plan. 

I know this is where I need to be. 

I need the People in the Winnipeg Mission. Both Members and Nonmembers. I know that every Elder and Sister I meet I will grow close too. These people will be my family for 18 Months. 

I am going to miss my family here in Utah. But I know both I and them will be blessed. I Report on my parents 20th wedding anniversary! I know that day will be so memorible. It will go down in my book as one of the greatest days or my life. 

I am so excited! 

WINNIPEG CANADA HERE I COME!!!!  

It finally came! 

Zoe and Mary-Anne Wilde 

(Chance's sister and mom, I love these two!!)

My missionary buddy, Brynna

My Sister Alissa 

My Nursery Buddy, Maddie! 

My  Best Friend Hannah! (Who surprised me and came to the opening!)

A Year of Bliss: Our fairy tale

Once Upon a Time

January 18th 2014

Adventures with the Princess's 

February 7th 2014

The "Curse" of Laughter Was Set

March 22nd 2014

The Ball

April 19th 2014

Coronation Day

May 30th 2014

A Royal Excursion 

June 27th 2014

The Royal Celebration

July 4th 2014

Enjoying the King in His Natural Territory 

August 30th 2014

The Promise Ring Was Placed

September 13th 2014

The Royal Farewell Feast 

October 18th 2014

We Said Our Farewell

October 20th 2014

The King Set Off on His Quest to Save the Kingdom

October 22nd 2014

The Queen Celebrated His Quest 

November 22nd 2014 

The Queen and Kings First Christmas Apart,

They were able to see and speak with each other for a short time. 

December 25th 2014

And They Lived Happily Ever After...

I've wrote my plans in pencil, Now it's time to give the editor the pen.

     I've learned a valuable lesson this past week. In fact I have learned this lesson a lot through out my life. But I keep learning it. God's way is always better, He has a better plan for you, than you have for yourself. Wow have I learned this lesson so many times. But why? Why do I always have to be constantly reminded? Because I'm Human, I'm Imperfect, I'm learning.  And you know what that's okay! 

     I (re) learned that lesson this past month with  going through my mission papers and preparing to leave. I had it all figured out! 

MY plan:

Get mission papers done by Thanksgiving CHECK!

 first interview with my bishop done CHECK!

Interview with my bishop the second time 

Interview with my Stake President 

Submit papers 

Get my call 

Well I got the first two done when I wanted them done but the last steps is where I started my learning process over again. After I had finished my mission papers I just needed to get my mission physical done. I felt healthy and I was excited and ready to get it over with. As my doctor was listening to my heart he heard a heart murmur. I wasn't too worried about it and neither was he, but he said I should get a echo-cardiogram done just for good measure. I did. I went in the next Monday. They told me I would have the results back in on Friday and I would be good to go. MY plan kicked back into action again. I was going to get my result back on Friday, Turn them in to my bishop Sunday, Get my interview with my stake president on Tuesday. He would submit them and I would have my call. NOPE, I didn't get my results back till the next Monday a week later!! But It wasn't the news I was hoping for. My doctor had found that I have sclerosis.(Which is I basically have a valve that only has 2 flaps insted of 3, and it's super thick making it less flexible) He wanted to talk to the Cardiologist and see what needed to be done. I was devastated! not only do I have a heart issue, but it was going to take even longer to submit my papers. 

Luckliy I got  a letter from my doctor explaining my health and that after talking with the Cardiologist they see no reason for me not to go on a mission or have any restrictions placed. I was so happy, but still kinda shaken up. I am going on a mission, but now I have this health issue. I never thought that I would have any health issues. I always felt I was heathy. I tried to be healthy at least. 

After this shakening experince I didn't really want to talk about it. I just shut out everything. I didn't want to even talk to my parents about it (It's hard to talk about it now but I am doing it) . Now it may seem super selfish of me to freak out about this little problem when there are so many bigger health issues out there in the world. But this is a big deal for me. I turn to my Heavenly Father for Guidence and Comfort. I need comfort more then anything. I prayed my heart out! I have only prayed this hard about 3 times before. But this time I prayed the hardest I have ever prayed. I wanted to know why, Why was this thing happenning? Why would God put this trial in my path? I wanted so badly to get an aswer.

 I woke up the next morning, prayed even harder, read my patriachal blessing, studied my scriptures and PRAYED again. On my way to school the thought popped into my head of a book I recently read. 5 scriptures that will get you through almost anything by John Bytheway. Im going to paraphrase what he said but basicly he was talking about how God tried Abraham with Sacrificing his son Issac and why. God knew Abraham was going to do it. But why? Maybe God wanted  Abraham to prove to Himself that his faith in God was strong and pure. That hit me. God knows how badly I want to go on a mission, But He wants me to know how badly I want to go on a mission.  I was so comforted. I know even more now that I do want to go on a mission. I am so excited. God does have a plan for us, He knows what is best. I learned that again. I learned not only does God try us to prove our faith in him, But to help us grow stronger and testify to ourselves that we are doing okay and we can keep going. 

2014: a Year to remember

Wow what a great YEAR! I have been so blessed this year! I can't even explain how grateful I am for this year.  Well to help  with understanding how blessed I was here are so high lights of my year!

January

9th: Started  my first job at Chick-Fil-A

18th: My Happily Ever After started. I started dating  Ransom Chance Wilde, The man of my dreams! 

February

10th: Eleanor Grace Bersie was born. 

14th: My love sang to me for Valentines day. 

15th: I had a great Valentines Date with Chance, Duncan and Melissa. 

March

17th: My Dad's Birthday

April

19th: Went to Prom with Chance 

May

6th: The Once Act I directed, Digging up the Past was performed. 

7th: I celebrated my 18th Birthday. 

31st: I graduated from MVHS. 

June

 Senior Trip to Bear Lake 

July 

4th: I went to The Stadium of Fire with Chance and His family. 

August

25th: Started my first semester of College.

started working as a tutor and a T.A at Cherry Hill. 

September 

13th: Chance gave me my promise ring. 

17th:Wyatt Johnson Left for Chihuahua Mexico. 

28th: Duncan and Chance had their Mission Farewells

October 

9th: Duncan Left for Montevideo Uruguay 

18th: Spent our 9 month anniversary in Salt Lake. 

20th: I said my farewell to Chance. 

22nd: Elder Ransom Chance Wilde reported  to the MTC. 

November

7th: I started my Mission Papers!

22nd: Elder Wilde's 1 month! 

27th: Thanksgiving 

December

3rd: Elder Wilde was in Frankfurt Germany

5th: Chance turned 19! 

22nd: Chance's 2 months in the field

25th: Christmas, I got to Skype Elder Wilde! 

27th: Got my patriarchal blessing

30th: Submitted my mission papers on my side, now the wait! 

As you can see it's been a great year!!! wow I am really blessed. I am so excited to see where 2015 takes me!  

I did it!

     So I just finished my first semester of college! wow has it been an adventure! I have loved it. I have hated it. I've had ups and downs and all arounds. But I have learned so much! I have learned to work two jobs plus be a student. I have also learned to be on my own. I haven't moved away form my home but I still have learned that being a grown up is hard. You have a ton on responsibility. You HAVE to be an adult. I have also learned that It's okay to fall. You just have to know how to get back up from the ground. You have to be okay with letting other people help you. You need to be humble enough to ask for help. 

When I first started I was very prideful and I didn't want anyone to know that I was having a hard time. I wanted to do it all on my own. But then I  learned, that's not what Heavenly Father wants us to do. That's not how he wants us to live our lives. Yes He wants us to learn to be independent but also humble enough to ask for help. I have had so many prayers where I just felt so hopeless. I wanted to give up.

     a few weeks ago I got to the point where I didn't know if I really wanted to go on to spring semester. I wanted to work full time, save money and not have to worry about school. I wanted to give up. As I talked with my parents they really encouraged me to keep going to school. They brought up that I would lose my works study job if I didn't do Spring semester. I had so many thoughts run through my head. I so many plans, If I lost my work study job then I could just find a full time job somewhere else. I wouldn't be paid as much but I still would be making money and saving it right? So many different things and plans going through my head. I finally decided I couldn't make this decision on my own I need help. Help from someone who knew exactly what I should do. I needed my Heavenly Father. I prayed and prayed. The end of the semester was coming up so I need to figure out a plan soon. I remember asking what I should do. I expected an answer right away but guess what didn't get one.  Gabby the lord will answer is his own way and time. He knows best. I waited.  

 I finally got my answer while I was in Church. one of the speakers was talking about how education helps us to learn and our knowledge is the only thing that we take with us when we depart from this world so we need to get as much knowledge or education as we can. I knew then that I needed to go to spring semester. I'ts not what I, ME, GABBY wanted but it was what the lord wanted and knew that it was best. So here I am at the end of Fall semester. almost to Christmas break!  and getting ready to go to Spring semester at UVU. I am now more excited then ever to continue my journey to becoming an elementary school teacher. One semester closer! 

One month! Good by November, Welcome wonderful December!

Well it's been a month since my best friend and love has been out on his mission. THAT'S CRAZY! I'm so proud of him! I have had the great blessing to email and write him every week. He is having a great time! He looks great too! He looks so happy and just full of the spirit. I love that!

This month has been full  of ups and downs. It's been a hard month to get through but I have learned so much about my self and about what I can do. 

     I started and finished (except my Doctors appointment) mission papers! But I still have to wait till February! I am counting down! I am so excited! I can already see and feel the blessings. Since Chance left and since I started getting ready for a mission I have noticed a lot more of Missionary opportunities in my day to day life. On Monday I got a really good email for a friend who is on her mission. Here is a bit of what she wrote that I absolutely love!! 

"I remember one time pre-mission I was praying for a "Missionary opportunity" because I was felt I was finally brave enough.  I went about my day looking for the opportunity and didn't think I found one.  As I was praying that night I asked Heavenly Father why he didn't give me one and he said, "But I did."  He helped me remember an instance earlier that evening with one of my dearest friends.  He was really struggling with life and I talked to him a lot about Christ and how He is the one that could give him peace. Heavenly Father said, "That the missionary experience I gave you."  It was then I understood better that a missionary isn't always inviting someone to church or to meet with the missionaries, but simply taking the time to love.  haha (are you getting the theme here?)  You are a missionary already.  You ARE having missionary experiences everyday you may not even recognize.  I invite you all to pray to recognize those experiences you are already having and I expect a report.  I promise you will find missionary work in unexpected places and that is the best kind of missionary work.  

Love you guys.  
Love, Sister McIntire" 

Isn't she the best!!! After I read that I realized that I was praying for a Missionary opportunity but I wasn't even paying attention to my day to notice that I was having Missionary opportunities every day! I started to look more intently for those amazing opportunities, and guess what? I HAVE HAD SOME EVERYDAY THIS WEEK!! (yes, it's only Wednesday, BUT STILL!!) how cool is that!! I was able to talk to my grandpa about a Mission, I talked to some co-workers about Religious things, I shared my smile with those around me. I was being an example of Jesus Christ "in all times, and in all things and in all places." I am a a Missionary NOW! I am so grateful for that wonderful insight Sister McIntire shared!  
Now I only have to wait.....2 MONTHS! to turn in my Mission papers. HOLY COW DOES IT FEEL LIKE AN ETERNITY!!! All I want for Christmas is for February to come faster!! 

The most frequent questions I have been getting from family and friends are:"Where do you want to serve?""Do you want to speak a language?""What would you do if you went to Germany." (That's where Elder Wilde is ) ;) "How excited are you to go?" "Do you feel ready?" 
Here are my answers to those question:ANY WHERE THE LORD WANTS ME TO GO! (I would really want to serve at the Temple Square ASL mission but probably wont get it because I am here in Utah already) I would love to speak ASL (American Sign Language) But again WHAT EVER THE LORD WANTS! I don't think I will go to Germany, I had to put on the application if I had any relation (family, grandparents, or boyfriend) in the mission field and where they are. So, I don't think that's where I will go. Unless the lord wants me to go there I will go! I AM SO EXCITED TO SERVE!!!! I REALLY WANT FEBRUARY CLASS!!! I  can always prepare more. I am nervous, but I am ready to learn! 
The month of November is done, now on to December! I am ready for December, Christmas and New Years! December also holds my Favorite time of year. I love the atmosphere of Christmas and winter. Funny side note Chance doesn't like Christmas, I'll change that! I LOVE CHRISTMAS! It's so romantic! 

SO now I say Good by to November, HELLO DECEMBER! 

The miles may be far, But our hearts will remain close.

Well Chance... Elder Wilde is now on his mission! I am so proud of him! He is such a huge example to me. The first week was the hardest. I miss him so much. I wanted to just crawl up into a ball and disappear. I still some days want to disappear. I still have my ups and downs but I do have more ups than downs. 

Well I was pretty much a overly attached Girlfriend the first week. I sent him an email everyday and tons of pictures. I also sent him a letter. I felt bad. I was being a huge distraction to him, or at least I felt I was. So I have now taken control of my addiction to emailing him and just write a little bit from everyday in one email and send one email with writing and one with pictures. A long with a hand written letter. 

I have heard from a lot of people to make these two years about me. To really take this chance and focus on me. To strengthen my relationship with my heavenly father. And I have already started to strengthen my relationship with God. I relied so much on him the first week for comfort and guidance. I wanted to know everything was going to be okay. I wanted this hole I felt in my heart to go away. The hole will never go away until Elder Wilde gets home. But for now it will be filled with love and memories and it will also be filled with Christ love. I am turning my self to the lord more than ever. He is the only one who feels exactly what I am feeling. He knows every detail of every thought. I find comfort in reading my scriptures and even more comfort in my personal conversation I have with my father in heaven during prayer. 

Prayer has been my biggest strength. My biggest asset. I am so grateful for prayer.

Well yes the first two weeks were hard but so great, I grew closer to my Heavenly Father, I grew closer to Elder Wilde. and I will continue to grow closer to Both of them through these two years.  I know these two years will be well worth the wait! I mean I only have 23.58 Months, 102 Weeks, 717 Days, 17208 Hours, 1032480 Minutes and 61948800Seconds. But who's counting.....