My life, My experience, ME

Sunday, April 26, 2015

"I'll go where you want me to go Dear Lord"

Holy Cow I leave to serve as a Missionary for The Church Of Jesus Christ Of Latter Day Saints in ONE MONTH! I am more than excited! I am also scared, nervous, stressed. EVERYTHING! But more over I am so excited and ready to share the wonderful Gospel of Jesus Christ!

When I first got my call, the question that was on everybody's mine was," Winnipeg Canada? Where is Winnipeg?" Well let me tell ya, It is about 3 hours north of Minnesota which means that it is very, Very ,VERY cold!

The Canada Winnipeg mission is the worlds largest geographical mission for the church. How cool is that!

I am so lucky and blest to be going to Canada. I was mostly in shock because Canada never crossed my mind as a place to go on a mission. But I know that is where God wants me to go.

My theme song for my mission is "Ill go where you want me to Go." What a powerful song! I am so in love with it. I love the whole song but the part that hits me the most is when it says,

"I'll go where You want me to go, dear Lord,
O'er mountain, or plain, or sea;
I'll say what You want me to say, dear Lord,
I'll be what You want me to be.

Perhaps today there are loving words
Which Jesus would have me speak;
There may be now in the paths of sin,
Some wand'rer whom I should seek;

O Savior, if Thou wilt be my guide,
Though dark and rugged the way,
My voice shall echo Thy message sweet,
I'll say what You want me to say."

Canada Winnipeg is where the Lords wants me to go and that is where I am going.

I have grown such a deep love for that place. I can't imagine how much more love I can and will gain!

I don't know why I am called to go to Winnipeg. But I'll find out. either there or in the far future. I am so excited to serve my Lord. I know it is going to be hard. But nothing that is worth something in life is gained from something easy right? Hard work pays off the best!

I have always loved working hard. It is so much more rewarding than getting off easy.

I am called of God.

I am a missionary for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.

Sunday, March 15, 2015

Heavenly Father is Mindful of us. And all pets go to Heaven

This past Saturday was an emotional day. It was also another Testament to me that our Heavenly Father is mindful of us. Our sweet dog Daisy Mae has been very sick for the past month or so. We knew that she was going to leave us. What we didn't know was how. We had talked as a family about putting her down. It was a very hard decision. We had to make that decision about 3 years ago with our other dog Quincy. We knew how hard and what we had to do to prepare for this second death. We all really wanted her to pass on her own. I personally wanted her to pass on her own. I prayed that she would. But I also prayed I wouldn't be home when it happened. Daisy's death was especially hard on me because she was my baby. We were inseparable. She was my

puppy, we clicked when we first got her. I mothered her like she was my own. I didn't want to see her pass on. I really wanted to be away when it happened.

Heavenly Father knew how hard it was for me. He was mindful of my wish. We have a work Facebook page and on that page a girl asked if anyone wanted the last hour of her shift. I didn't want to take it at first. But I soon felt that I should. I had also planned on going to the temple with my mom and spending the rest of my free time with my little sister. I knew it was going to be a good day. I went to the Temple and had a great time there, I took my sister to get ice cream. Then went to work for one hour. I then came home. My sister came out to my car and it looked like she had been crying. She opened my car door "Daisy's gone.. it happened with in the last hour." You would think I would be totally heart broken, shaken to my core, and un able to breath but I felt at peace. I went into the back yard and saw my sweet Daisy lying there next to her house. She looked so peaceful, so happy.

I didn't realize the timing and schedule of the day until later. I had gone to the temple earlier, spent time with my sister and went to work for ONE hour. That one hour was the hour Daisy decided to leave this life. Heavenly Father knew she would pass away that hour, He knew I didn't want to be there when it happened, He knew that one hour shift was what I needed.

I am so comforted and at peace. I know my Heavenly Father was watching out over me. I know he loves me and he wanted to grant my wish. It was a day full of beauty, a day full of peace, a day full of love, a day full comfort. I am truly blessed.

I will miss Daisy Mae. The backyard feels empty and lonely. But I know that she is happy and out of pain.

Monday, February 23, 2015

The Wonderful, Amazing, Temple

What a wonderful weekend! I had the great opportunity to go through the Logan Temple with my family. What an amazing opportunity!
There is such a peace and strong spirit there. The people are so amazing! They greet you with such love. I felt so at peace with everyone there.
The temple is such a beatiful place. The colors are gorgeous and the decor is amazing! But even better the spirit is a amzing.
I have such a better understanding of the plan of salvation and my heavenly fathers love.
The temple is where miracles happen. My family is sealed together forever becasue of the great blessings of the temple.
I can't wait to go back and continue to grow and learn more.
I can't wait to be sealed to my husband one day.
I am so excited to share this gospel with those I will teach.
The temple is amazing.
If you have not been I encourage you to prepare to go. The blessings are unlimited! If you have been, go often, there is no better place to be!

Sunday, February 1, 2015

Dear Sister Bersie....

Dear sister Bersie you are here by called to serve as a missionary for the church of Jesus Christ of latter day saints. You are assigned to labor in the Canada Winnipeg mission! You should report to the Provo Missionary Training Center on Wednesday, May 27th, 2015. You will prepare to preach the gospel in the English language.

Wow! I am so speachless, I am beyond excited! I have waited for this moment for 2 years! I can't even believe it's actully happening.

I am truly blessed to be able to represent the lord for 18 months.

I can't even express the joy and love I have to this wonderful work. I can already feel the love for the people in Winnipeg. I am so excited to serve them. I am excited to meet my Mission President and his wife. Even though I will only be with them for a month. I am excited to be on this journey with a new Mission President in July.

God has a plan.

I know this is where I need to be.

I need the People in the Winnipeg Mission. Both Members and Nonmembers. I know that every Elder and Sister I meet I will grow close too. These people will be my family for 18 Months.

I am going to miss my family here in Utah. But I know both I and them will be blessed. I Report on my parents 20th wedding anniversary! I know that day will be so memorible. It will go down in my book as one of the greatest days or my life.

I am so excited!

WINNIPEG CANADA HERE I COME!!!!

It finally came!

Zoe and Mary-Anne Wilde

(Chance's sister and mom, I love these two!!)

My missionary buddy, Brynna

My Sister Alissa

My Nursery Buddy, Maddie!

My Best Friend Hannah! (Who surprised me and came to the opening!)

Friday, January 16, 2015

A Year of Bliss: Our fairy tale

Once Upon a Time

January 18th 2014

Adventures with the Princess's

February 7th 2014

The "Curse" of Laughter Was Set

March 22nd 2014

The Ball

April 19th 2014

Coronation Day

May 30th 2014

A Royal Excursion

June 27th 2014

The Royal Celebration

July 4th 2014

Enjoying the King in His Natural Territory

August 30th 2014

The Promise Ring Was Placed

September 13th 2014

The Royal Farewell Feast

October 18th 2014

We Said Our Farewell

October 20th 2014

The King Set Off on His Quest to Save the Kingdom

October 22nd 2014

The Queen Celebrated His Quest

November 22nd 2014

The Queen and Kings First Christmas Apart,

They were able to see and speak with each other for a short time.

December 25th 2014

And They Lived Happily Ever After...

Friday, January 9, 2015

I've wrote my plans in pencil, Now it's time to give the editor the pen.

I've learned a valuable lesson this past week. In fact I have learned this lesson a lot through out my life. But I keep learning it. God's way is always better, He has a better plan for you, than you have for yourself. Wow have I learned this lesson so many times. But why? Why do I always have to be constantly reminded? Because I'm Human, I'm Imperfect, I'm learning. And you know what that's okay!

I (re) learned that lesson this past month with going through my mission papers and preparing to leave. I had it all figured out!

MY plan:

Get mission papers done by Thanksgiving CHECK!

first interview with my bishop done CHECK!

Interview with my bishop the second time

Interview with my Stake President

Submit papers

Get my call

Well I got the first two done when I wanted them done but the last steps is where I started my learning process over again. After I had finished my mission papers I just needed to get my mission physical done. I felt healthy and I was excited and ready to get it over with. As my doctor was listening to my heart he heard a heart murmur. I wasn't too worried about it and neither was he, but he said I should get a echo-cardiogram done just for good measure. I did. I went in the next Monday. They told me I would have the results back in on Friday and I would be good to go. MY plan kicked back into action again. I was going to get my result back on Friday, Turn them in to my bishop Sunday, Get my interview with my stake president on Tuesday. He would submit them and I would have my call. NOPE, I didn't get my results back till the next Monday a week later!! But It wasn't the news I was hoping for. My doctor had found that I have sclerosis.(Which is I basically have a valve that only has 2 flaps insted of 3, and it's super thick making it less flexible) He wanted to talk to the Cardiologist and see what needed to be done. I was devastated! not only do I have a heart issue, but it was going to take even longer to submit my papers.

Luckliy I got a letter from my doctor explaining my health and that after talking with the Cardiologist they see no reason for me not to go on a mission or have any restrictions placed. I was so happy, but still kinda shaken up. I am going on a mission, but now I have this health issue. I never thought that I would have any health issues. I always felt I was heathy. I tried to be healthy at least.

After this shakening experince I didn't really want to talk about it. I just shut out everything. I didn't want to even talk to my parents about it (It's hard to talk about it now but I am doing it) . Now it may seem super selfish of me to freak out about this little problem when there are so many bigger health issues out there in the world. But this is a big deal for me. I turn to my Heavenly Father for Guidence and Comfort. I need comfort more then anything. I prayed my heart out! I have only prayed this hard about 3 times before. But this time I prayed the hardest I have ever prayed. I wanted to know why, Why was this thing happenning? Why would God put this trial in my path? I wanted so badly to get an aswer.

I woke up the next morning, prayed even harder, read my patriachal blessing, studied my scriptures and PRAYED again. On my way to school the thought popped into my head of a book I recently read. 5 scriptures that will get you through almost anything by John Bytheway. Im going to paraphrase what he said but basicly he was talking about how God tried Abraham with Sacrificing his son Issac and why. God knew Abraham was going to do it. But why? Maybe God wanted Abraham to prove to Himself that his faith in God was strong and pure. That hit me. God knows how badly I want to go on a mission, But He wants me to know how badly I want to go on a mission. I was so comforted. I know even more now that I do want to go on a mission. I am so excited. God does have a plan for us, He knows what is best. I learned that again. I learned not only does God try us to prove our faith in him, But to help us grow stronger and testify to ourselves that we are doing okay and we can keep going.

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

2014: a Year to remember

Wow what a great YEAR! I have been so blessed this year! I can't even explain how grateful I am for this year. Well to help with understanding how blessed I was here are so high lights of my year!

January

9th: Started my first job at Chick-Fil-A